V-Day...What To Do???

This is a blog I did on another site dated February 13, 2010..to see original blog (with some interesting comments..lol..) visit http://shine.yahoo.com/shine/v-day-what-to-do-654900.html

V-Day...What to do???

Sooo..I'm single! (What else is new!) and by some singles, valentines day is viewed as the dreaded holiday!! With the exception of some that are glad to be free from ridiculous relationships...but me...uummmm, nah not really! I mean, I've had my moments from previous valentines days' where I despised anything lovey dovey, but thats not the case this year...thank GOD!!

So even though I'll more than likely still be single come Sunday I REFUSE to sit up and be depressed and sad and feel lonely just because I'm not spending it with anyone in particular. So I need some ideas on what to do. I have a few things in mind but not sure if they'll exactly happen..

• Just stay home..glass of wine and a good movie should take my mind of things right?...nah
• Go out to dinner with some of my other single girlfriends..but thats IF they're not boo'ed up! you never know with those girls!!
• I live in Dallas and since it is the nba all star weekend going on, snag a cutie while I'm out and about in hopes that we'll have a spontaneous valentine day rendezvous!....not sure about that either...too many crazies out here! and they often want something I AIN'T giving up!
• Go to dinner alone and try not to gag at all the other couples out there! LOL!!! I would totally be hating!

I have 2 days to decide what I wanna do. Last year I had the bomb valentines's day. My BFF and I were on a cruise to Cozumel, Mexico! That was soo much fun..but it was a little weird! We were worried people would think we were "together"! So this year I was hoping that things would continue on the up and up, but it seems like now, its back to the same ol' random valentine's day. Nothing special, nothing significant!


IDK yall! we'll see how this goes! I'm not upset about it, but it would be nice to do something fun and different...ah well, another year, another Valentine's Day..and its just Me! Which shouldn't be that bad, right?!?!

HMMMMMM....

This is a blog I wrote on another site dated January 25, 2010...to see original blog, visit http://shine.yahoo.com/shine/hmmmm-575347.html

HMMMM....

I spent a little while trying to come up with what can I actually write as my first blog..and this one thing keeps coming to mind...MEN!!! I can go on and on and on about this topic...number one, I just absolutely LOVE them! I believe they are one of God's greatest creation! and number two, i guess i'm at a place where I actually WANT a BF! I feel like I'm at a good place in my life where I would be ready for one. I use to spent a lot of time trying to figure out what was wrong with me! Now I know, there is nothing wrong with me, per se...but there is a reason for my singleness! Maybe, there are some things God wants me to accomplish first...maybe there are still more things I need to learn about myself before I'm forced to deal with someone elses self...or maybe its not me at all, its him (where ever he is) that isn't ready! But after all that thinking, I always come back to God knows whats best!..and I rest in that. I don't hate being single...the grass isn't always greener on the married side of life either! There are pros and cons to both. But I'm really enjoying my singleness..the independence..the coming and going as I please...the not having to answer to another human being...I LOVE it! But I would be lying to myself if I were to say that I didn't want to experience the other side either. Once of my homegirls recently told me that this (refering to my new job) could be a sign of better things to come! And quite honestly, she was right! I've had a lot of new things happen in just the first 25 days of this year! The meeting of a potential BF just hasn't happened yet. So I'm still waiting Lord! LOL!! But in the meantime, I'm alright with being single and ready to mingle!

Back to Reality!!!

so now that the holidays are over, what do you do!!! a few things for me....back to work (ugh)...re-evaluate finances (too much money on presents)...lose the holiday pounds (i TOTALLY ate too much)...and finally START ALL OVER!!!

by start all over, its what it sounds like, start over!!! that was my plea! i needed a fresh start with everything! with my money, my health, and God!! and i must say my fresh start with God has been the most rewarding!! when i thought i didn't have the power to change some of the things going on with me, He told me that i did, and gave me the direction to so do!! so my theme this year...TRANSFORMATION!!! the peace and joy i have right now is indescribable! thats real!

i really believe i am living my best life at this moment (nooo not Oprah's best life). not to say things will get worse the moment the clock strikes 12, but as far as today goes... i'm happy!! and now that i have a new mind, i am ready to embrace all the wonderful (and not so wonderful) plans God has for my life!!!


Song: Prodigal Son by Tye Tribbett

JOY!!!!!

this is truly my favorite time of year!! its just something about Christmas that puts me in a good mood!! the decorations, the christmas cookies, family gatherings, watching a charlie brown christmas...it just sends my happiness into overdrive!!

as a kid, christmas was one of those holidays i looked forward to, but at the same time was something i dreaded. you know back then, it was all about what you got!!! i had the christmases where i got a lot, the ones where i got a little, and the ones where i got nothing!! (and it wasn't because santa thought i was naughty!!) each year was a surprise cause i never knew which one it was gonna be. kinda embarrassing nonetheless!! it was hard some days...but like everything else, it passed.

those were the times that molded me into who i am today. very appreciative of what i have and not taking anything for granted...knowing that the little i do have can be gone in a heart beat....helping others who may be less fortunate. it also set a tone of how i want my family to be when i get married and have kids...starting new traditions and carrying on some old ones. i finally saw the movie "This Christmas", and it set the perfect tone of what i would like...a christian based family, though they have their struggles, they stick together no matter what!!

most importantly, though everything i absolutely love about this time, i have to put more focus into what its really about....celebrating the birth of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!!! with out him, i would not have the joy and peace that surrounds this holiday. so my goal, this year, even though i am grateful to have a family to have christmas dinner with, a christmas tree, and the means to buy my own christmas gift if i don't get one from someone else :), is to celebrate the love of Christ, whom without Him, there would be no reason to this season.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!

Song: This Christmas, by hmmm... take your pick: Chris Brown or the classic Donny Hathaway!!

HBCU Experience...

TU..U KNOW!!!! one of the many chants done by the students and alumni at Tuskegee University, a historically black college in Alabama. i had the pleasure of visiting my first HBCU for Homecoming this past weekend with my friend, and i had a ball!! being from Indiana, i didn't have the choice of going to a HBCU..1) because there weren't any in the state..from what i know there are 2 in Ohio, but didn't know until it was too late..and 2) i simply just couldn't afford it!! if you're gonna go to a well known HBCU, you gotta head south and east, and i wasn't feeling the out of state fees.

Being among the people down there really felt good! they all took such pride in their school! i wish i had that! it made me wish i could have went there..but it worked out best that i didn't cause i think it would have been a lil longer before i got to know Jesus!! LOL!! i don't think my priorities would have been about the right...all about a social life..school...what!! but there are people who go and get it done in 4 years, so i guess i could have done it..who knows! the campus was beautiful!! you get a really good historic vibe, but still very in tune with today's day and age. i got to see the birth home of Booker T. Washington which is on the campus...seeing all the greeks represent their frat was entertaining...and listening to the band get the crowd hype at the football game, that was all i needed! HBCU's are all about the band!!

now the social life...wow!! all the parties we went to were off the hook!! people came out dressed all nice but still did their thang on the dance floor!! as did we!!! we had a lot of fun! it has to be fun seeing people you haven't seen in a while..whether its one year or ten years...thats what homecoming is all about! being at the parties dancing and clowning with my girlfriends, scoping out cute guys, and laughing at each other all night made it the best time for me. i had a blast!

Its On My Mind..Gotta Get it Out!!!

2 days in a row..thats a record!!
okay...so this is something some friends have started doing but its usually done in our daily email correspondence. i have some things i have to get off my chest so why not share it with the world!!

A LIST OF RANDOM THOUGHTS:

~why did day light savings time have to end..its almost 7 o'clock and it looks like its midnight outside!! i'm getting sleepy already...
~really should have went to mall. i'm such a last minute person..grief!! its just when i get home, i don't feel like doing anything else, esp. leaving the crib..
~add laundry to that list of things i gotta do but don't feel like doing. my closet is a mess!!!
~i LOVE my hair stylist!! my hair looks...oh, don't get me started!!
~speaking of, she's moving to a new suite, right across from the barbershop that cuts a lot of the NFL and NBA players hair!!....ooohh wee!!
~i'll really be happy when all this election stuff is over with! i did my part and voted and everything (GO OBAMA!), but i am so tired of hearing about it every minute of the day!! such a bad citizen!!
~still confused about devon's engagement????? (shoulder shrug) but happy nonetheless..
~ whats really going on with the dallas cowboys?!?!?! i'm so disgusted right now!!
~i wish i can stay consistent with exercising...
~i wish i can stay consistent with eating right...
~i would give my right arm for a noyer waffle..well no cause i wouldn't be able to eat it..maybe my left arm..LOL!!! (can't believe thats still on my bird!)
~how do you get rid of someone you wish you haven't given your number to??
~i'm dying for a new blackberry..
~3 more days til i'm in ATL..we are gonna do the fool this weekend...boi!!!
~wish the dream i had last night was a reality..how nice would that be...
~i miss melody!!!! (sigh...weep...sigh)
~i wish they had emoticons on here...
~man..i really need some shoes....its really depressing me right now!..
~i forgot to go see saw V...retard!! how did i forget to do that!!
~move to chicago??...wouldn't that be nice!!!
~that should be enough for now..unless i come up with something else..

peace.kid.

no song selection this time!!! well, maybe...Fade Into the Background by NeYo

Ramble Session Part I

i don't know whats been wrong with me lately..this emotional roller coaster is starting to take its toll! its been going on for months, where i'm up then down, left then right. but whats bothering me the most is i don't know what the cause is!!! if i were getting closer to my sixties, i'd blame it on menopause but i am so far from being close to that!!

is it just that i'm a woman!! what a lame excuse! i mean, yeah we go through the extremes of beautifying and pampering ourselves, hair..makeup.. "trimming"..pain of certain shoes..and not to mention the one thing we can't help, ol' aunt flo! and what do men go through
..........................................(cue crickets).................................................... NOTHING!!!! but i can't say thats the reason for my 'slump', if you will...

maybe i really am an emotional person...something i've never owned up to. and by emotional i mean very into my feelings, and always has some over the top reaction to very small things. nothing wrong with that, buts its never been ME! (don't confuse this with 'dramatic', i own up to that..lol..) now i don't wanna sound like i'm schizo or something, but i go about feeling things in my own way. my outward expression isn't always what i'm feeling inside. i guess thats the way i protect myself..i don't know...

or maybe....it is what it is...something that will continue to be unexplainable but still serves meaningful purpose. God has infinite ways of doing things, so i don't want to not relate this to something spiritual that could be taking place. its just so weird! but, His ways are not our ways. so with that being said, i'm done trying to figure it out..done with leaning on my own understanding..done with trying to come up with a cure which winds up being only temporary. this could possibly be a new me..or the labor pains for giving birth to something else..

peace.kid.

song: "Me" by Erykah Badu